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Hello again! I hope that you all had a fantastic weekend. I spent some time in Chicago relaxing and catching up with friends and family. One of the stops on our Chi-Town trip was the Museum of Science and Industry. If you haven’t checked it out, please do…it’s wonderful! I hadn’t been there since I was a kid and I was amazed at the number and quality of hands-on, high-tech exhibits. One of the most striking exhibits we saw was Body Worlds, the world-famous collection of actual human bodies and organs that have been preserved through a process called “plastination.” I can’t even really describe how thrilling (but kind of horrifying) it felt to walk through the galleries seeing what our bodies would look like without skin, or how our organs and ligaments work and so on. Incredible!

This Body Worlds show was “The Cycle of Life” and, of course, it focused on the entire life cycle including reproduction. This meant that included in the exhibit were actual embryos and fetuses, preserved and on display. At first I thought that it would upset me to see these things, even though I was expecting to see them. In reality I found that it was instead fascinating. I got to see, almost to the day, what my baby(ies) look like inside me, and how it/they will continue to grow throughout the coming months.

I am completely in awe of the scientific processes that have made it possible for C and me to be where we are today. Just thinking about what science makes possible is staggering, and I am so grateful that there are so many intelligent men and women researching and dedicating their lives to eradicating disease and solving medical issues. Without these people the human race would suffer greatly. Thank you, Science, for all you do!

The first appointment is drawing nearer! Two more days!!



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In Memoriam

Today is Memorial Day and people all over the country will be going to the pool, barbecuing with family and friends, leaving flowers at grave sites, and reflecting on the lives of their friends and loved ones who have passed. C and I will just be trying to keep busy to make today go by as fast as possible so that tomorrow morning we can get test #2, call the doctor, and get some answers.

Though one might not think it, Memorial Day can actually be tough for an infertile couple; all those family cook outs where well-intentioned aunts and uncles are asking “When are you going to have kids?”, abstaining from alcohol because this time, this time really might be the real deal, embarrassed to wear a bathing suit because your stomach is bruised and bloated from shots and medications, and dwelling on the beautiful lives that could have been for those tiny embryos for whom you had so much love, but were lost.

I have so much respect, love, and sympathy for those who have gone down this road before me. The physical and emotional strength that it takes to keep going after each loss is staggering, and I would never wish that grief on anyone.

So even as today C and I have that tiny glimmer of hope shining at us, we still need to keep ourselves grounded and realistic and know that, no matter what tomorrow brings, there is still a long journey ahead of us.

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